I Don't Like Waiting

It's kind of funny. Most people who want to adopt don't because they can't afford the adoption fees (sometimes referred to as the "ransome"), and most people aren't willing to get a loan of that size for a child. (A car yes, a house yes, but a child - no. Don't get me started on that one.)

Ironically, I'm not in that position. I'm in the reverse.

I have my own personal savings, which while they wouldn't cover a whole adoption, would certainly be enough to get the ball rolling, and by the time it was all done, I would almost certainly have paid it off.

The thing is, I'd never pass a home study. Not at the moment.

I'm single (which isn't actually impossible, but does make things harder), working part time as a child care worker (not with the big bucks), with no home of my own who shares a house (with the awesome Kallie, but still), and who moves every year or so. I have an extended family who don't like adoption. My health is not good, and I'm already excluded from a few countries because of past health histories.

It's hard waiting. It's harder waiting when it probably isn't going to change. I'm not going to work full time (because then my health would be shattered), I'm not planning on changing jobs, and I'm not likely to be moving out of the singles market any time soon.

Still, it is the position God has placed me in. And I've been able to do a lot of good where I am now. I've shared the gospel with a few people; I've been able to sponsor more children than the average husband would give the okay for. I've been able to donate small amounts to other people's adoptions, allowing them to bring home their children.

So while He has work for me here, I will do it, and one day I will know about all the children I helped have a family - even if none of those children are mine.